ENTERTAINMENT DROPPINGS: What It Feels Like To Find Spalding Gray's Body

The Cheese Kurd sent me this link a couple days ago when it was first published. At first I couldn't remember if he and I had ever talked about how I've been a big Spalding Gray fan since the '80s, but then I remembered that we talked recently about how he died three years ago and I think I said something like "Yeah, it sucks, but he did what he was supposed to do" and I think there may have been an awkward pause at that point. Anyway, I was trying to read this article at work, and usually whenever I'm there and I find something meaningful or interesting to read online I keep getting interrupted so I can't finish it in one sitting, and this was no exception. I would read a sentence, or a half-sentence, and someone would walk past my desk and say something to me. And when they could tell I was "busy," they kept talking to me. Then I'd read a half-paragraph and the phone would ring. I finally got to the last sentence and my boss walked up to me to tell me he was leaving for the day. I was getting more and more irritated as it went on, since there are always so many times during the day when I'm bored out of my mind and no one pays any attention to me and I can either work or surf to my heart's content, but not this time, not when it actually almost kinda mattered. Then I finished it and it felt like somebody punched me in the stomach and then handed me a delicious ice cream sundae.

If I ever thought it would be interesting or funny enough to blog about The Top 75 Celebrities Whose Existence So Inspires Me That Just Looking At A Picture Of Them Makes Me Want To Give Somebody A Hug, Spalding Gray would easily be in the top five. Sorry, Spalding, I can't commit to you being number one since, you know, you're dead now.

• What It Feels Like...To Find Spalding Gray's Body [Esquire]